Archive for the Category ◊ Zeke ◊

13 May 2011 Family Update
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Well, today was the 2nd day in a row and ever that Hannah hasn’t had an accident during the day in her big girl undies. I went cold turkey two Mondays ago and gave up diapers with Hannah. She’s known how to potty for a while now, it’s just training myself to stop what I’m doing to help her out. And this week she totally shocked me when we were out grocery shopping and Hannah said she needed to go, and I wasn’t in any position to figure out how to juggle our stuff and Zeke and take her, so I assumed she went in her pull-up…and she waited until we were home! Bless her heart, she is growing up so fast, only 21 months old!

And Mr. Zeke. Not much older than 7 months, has been crawling on all fours like a champ since we got home from Easter. And today I caught him pulling himself up to standing twice. Seriously kid? Slow down! I thought about pulling him down and making him sit, but figured that would just give him more practice to go and stand up again. At least, I’m hoping this means before we know it he’ll be strong enough to defend himself from Hannah.

Tim has been the best husband ever. I have grown to admire him even more over the past year with everything we’ve been through, good and bad. He’s chasing after a dream right now, and I’m glad he has the opportunity. So many men go through life never taking the risk to pursue what they are passionate about, and I don’t want Tim to look back and regret taking advantage of this time. It has taken me a little bit to finally get to this point of being supportive and not stressed about how we’re going to make it financially. But, God has been blessing us through providing for our needs. We don’t have much extra, but we’re getting by and growing.

And then there’s me…

Every day I am forcing myself to work out. I’m doing Jillian Michael’s 30 day shred. It’s only a 20 minute workout dvd, but she is tough! And Weight Watchers is going well. I still have things to figure out so I’ll be eating healthier. Hopefully in a couple more weeks I’ll have a better handle on it. And juggling the kids in with all of this. On top of getting healthy physically, I’m doing a women’s Bible study on forgiveness with our church. This is a very timely study for me, and I’ll have to write more about it later.

23 Apr 2011 Easter Egg Hunting
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We enjoyed this morning hunting Easter eggs at my parent’s church. They set it up so different age groups were in different areas so the babies wouldn’t get ran over by the big kids.
I loved being in the toddler group where the kids shared eggs with each other and then got tired of cleaning up someone else’s mess on the playground and decided to swing or slide instead.
That was a much more relaxing egg hunt than I remember having in elementary.

25 Mar 2011 God called Ezekiel
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I have no doubt that God is going to do amazing things through Ezekiel. Right now he just has to survive the parenting that Tim and I put him through. We pray every day for wisdom in raising Hannah and Zeke to grow up as believers in Jesus Christ, living out a personal faith.

When we were pregnant with Hannah we had Ezekiel picked out for a boy name, and when we got pregnant with Zeke and found out he was a boy, there was no doubt what his name would be. We knew that picking a name as strong as Ezekiel was bold in our expectations for our son and how God will use him. If you haven’t read the book of Ezekiel, I highly recommend it. It was the middle name that took us until the lady who needed his name for the birth certificate came in asking. And luckily he got a good one .

I can look back through my life and see God working in special ways to touch my heart. My first memory of this was when I was five. And God continues to do little things to keep me in awe of his wonder and love. So how do I know he is going to use Ezekiel? …

Before we got pregnant with Zeke I was struggling with God, wanting to control how many kids we will have an when. As if I knew the best timing, more so than God. So I had to give that control issue over to God. And what do you know, it didn’t take any time at all to be carrying my second child.

While in my first trimester Tim went to Haiti and came back knowing that he needed to return. I saw an incredible change in Tim from his time in Haiti. God really worked in him. I couldn’t put my finger on it at the time, but now I know that Tim grew in his understanding of God, being able to discern God’s voice and listen and be obedient. I have loved watching Tim grow over the last year, and leading others to do the same.

So Tim decided to go back to Haiti, and take whoever wanted to go along. I joined a team of adults and youth, some from our church, and some friends and family of ours from out of town. I was just in my second trimester while in Haiti and had no problems at all.

Later that summer, we went to Mexico with another team of adults and youth from our church for a missions trip. I was 30 weeks along in my pregnancy then, but again did well throughout our trip.

Soon after we got back from Mexico things started changing at our church and it soon became clear that our time there was coming to an end. I had my most difficult week of my pregnancy with how stressful things got. Luckily my doctor assured me that my level of stress wouldn’t effect Zeke, it just made me incredibly uncomfortable being pregnant. Then after Zeke was born I was blessed to have my mom around since Tim didn’t have time off.

In the midst of everything I thought that my pregnancy with Zeke was the worst timing ever. At one point close to delivery not only were we dealing with things at church, but also the question of Tim’s grandfather surviving some difficult health issues. (He’s still around and doing great!) I was so stressed, but gave it all over to God, because there was nothing I could do but trust.

I have come to find that Zeke and Hannah both have been a source of great joy during this season of life. We have been so blessed by our two adorable children, and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. Zeke has a special place in my heart with everything he has gone through with me before he was even born. And now we look forward to what God is going to do with what he is teaching us and taking us through. I’m not surprised to see this time of trial after how much Tim’s faith has grown last year, and us together as a married couple by sharing in the amazing experiences that drew us closer to God at the same time. I’m not exactly thrilled to be going through this time, but I do look forward to the fruit that will come from it.

16 Mar 2011 Reaching mile stones
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It has been so much fun to watch Zeke grow and develop, and to watch Hannah interact with him. Hannah absolutely adores her little brother, and Zeke is in awe of his big sister.

Hannah is 19 months and has an expanding vocabulary. It’s so much fun to review words with her, and give her a task to do, unsure if she will understand it, and she totally blows me away when she completes her task. Today I was tired of all of Zeke’s toys all over the living room floor, I simply asked Hannah to put all the toys in the box. I then continued to do some dishes, forgetting what I asked Hannah to do, and turned around to see our living room floor all cleaned up!

Zeke is 5.5 months old and keeps us on his toes. He has been sitting up on his own now, but we still put pillows around him for the occasional fall after sitting up for a while. Zeke has been able to put himself up in a pushup plank position, and can scoot backwards or sideways, trying to crawl after what he wants.

We tried to feed Zeke cereal the week before we went to Chicago, and it didn’t go over well. I took the cereal to Chicago with us, but didn’t feed him any because it wasn’t as convenient, plus he doesn’t need it until 6 months. The last few nights though, Zeke has been waking up at 2:30am, and last night was the first time he wouldn’t give up crying. The previous nights he was able to be settled back down without eating. So today I tried cereal with Zeke again, and he ate like a champ! Before Zeke hardly got any cereal down, and today he ate everything I gave him. I’m hoping tonight he’ll sleep better with getting more food in his belly today. I upped how many liquid feedings he had, but that didn’t seem to help, so cereal it is.

I’ve also been trying to figure out Zeke’s napping schedule. He pretty much only took one nap today and was super fussy. I had him lay down a few other times when I was sure he needed a nap, but he either fought sleep, or only slept for maybe a half hour if I was lucky. I’m really nervous about tonight and leading into our weekend traveling to Maine to visit a church. My energy is quickly draining with our nights turning rough, and I could use some extra energy for the weekend.

Hannah was such a “by the book” baby, and Zeke is throwing me for loops. Either that, or I haven’t read as much this go around since we just did this last year, but I have already forgotten so much about these baby stages. God’s gotta be using this to teach me something. I know patience is something I’ve been learning.

02 Feb 2011 Double check-ups
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Having 2 kids 14 months apart came in handy today. Hannah had her 18 month check up, and Zeke had his 4 month check up. So we made today a family affair and Tim came with us because both kids had shots. That was the low of the visit.

Zeke: Doing great, still fully breastfeeding, and loves to laugh! Zeke is constantly taking everything in and learning how to use his little hands. Tonight he even giggled when he was able to grab something near by that he was looking at. What a cutie pie! So at the doctor, we learned that Zeke is 25 inches tall weighing in at 13lbs and 4oz. And we also learned that his uvula is split! I’ve never heard of that before, and there is nothing wrong with it being split. It’ll just end up being something cool he can show his friends when he gets older.

Hannah: Growing so fast, and feeds herself soup, cereal with milk, and yogurt without making a mess. It’s crazy to see how fast she is learning. She is also using the potty regularly. It’s been a couple days since I’ve changed a poopy diaper (well one of Hannah’s), and I love it! Of course, we do spend quite a lot of time in the bathroom ’cause one of Hannah’s favorite readings spots is on the pot. Today we learned that Hannah is 33 inches tall and 25lbs 3oz.

Tim has been keeping us entertained by vlogging regularly. At least 2 or 3 times a week. Check the videos out on YouTube at Make sure you subscribe! Or if you don’t want to create an account you can go to and subscribe there.

17 Jan 2011 Zeke and Hannah just being cute
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18 Nov 2010 Adjusting to Two
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I was expecting to have a harder time adjusting to two kids in the house instead of one, but I honestly feel like adjusting to one child from none was a lot harder. This time around I have been a lot more relaxed and care free with things. I feel like I know a little more about what I’m doing this time around. I don’t have as much time as I did with one child, which is apparent by how I have neglected my blog, but I feel a lot more sane this go around. I have lots of videos to put together, one is almost done of the kiddos from last week, then I have bigger videos such as Zeke’s birth and dedication to do. Eventually I’ll get those up. Then I would love to vlog more often. I’ve done one, and videoed another that I didn’t get around to putting together.

I am impressed with how great Hannah has been with Zeke. I haven’t seen any signs of jealousy, even when she comes to me wanting to be held when I’m holding Zeke. And I am so blessed to have a son that loves to smile. It makes middle of the night and morning feedings go way better.

I’ve tested Hannah a couple times to see how she handles Zeke. The first time was the first week home from the hospital with Zeke. When getting Hannah up from a nap I brought Zeke in and laid him down next to Hannah. Then gave him Hannah’s blankie to see what she would do. She ended up giving him her favorite teddy bear too! Then today I brought Hannah with me to watch me lay Zeke down in her crib for his nap. She wanted to get in a lay next to him for a little bit before we went and ate lunch. I was a little nervous about transferring Hannah to a toddler bed sometime in the future and let Zeke get the crib, but I think if I nap him in the crib with Hannah knowing, it should go better. I’ve also made the decision that if I have to let Hannah cry for a little bit in her crib after a nap because I’m feeding Zeke, that I do not show up holding him. I make sure to put Zeke down in another room before getting Hannah. I just don’t want her to have ill feelings towards her brother for mommy holding him when Hannah has been wanting someone to come get her.

Tim and I are still learning with Hannah. I feel like we have the baby part down, but Hannah brings new surprises every day.┬áLearning how to discipline Hannah is probably our biggest feat right now. A couple months ago she learned how to arch her back when she throws a tantrum, and when she knows she isn’t supposed to do something she’ll act like she is about to do it and stare us down. What fun!

I think the most exciting thing happening in our house is Hannah starting to use her potty more regularly. I started a few months ago with sitting her on the potty before taking a bath after she showed interest in the potty and loved to play with it when she was in the bathroom. She didn’t actually use the potty until recently, and now this week I started putting her on the potty after breakfast also, and there is rarely a time she doesn’t use the potty when she sits. Even this morning she let me know she needed to use it in the middle of breakfast, so we quickly went and sat her on the potty and it was a success! What a big 15 month old!

22 Oct 2010 Ezekiel at 3 weeks old
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13 Oct 2010 Zeke’s 2 week check-up
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Tomorrow Zeke will be 2 weeks, but we went in for his check-up a day early because Thursdays are my doctor’s days off. I have been very intentional about nursing Zeke, but probably a little too intentional. I’ve gotten to the point to where I don’t let Zeke cry, and any time that he does I’ll nurse him. After what I went through with Hannah, still feeling like I starved my little girl for the first 3 weeks of her life, I don’t want to go down that path ever again. I really needed today’s doctor’s visit, and I am so thankful for our doctor and how understanding, caring, and helpful he is.

The check-up was great! Our goal was to have Zeke back up to his birth weight of 7lbs 9oz, and he weighed in at 8lbs 4oz! While in the hospital Zeke only lost 5oz which the doctor said was great, and it was due to my milk coming in on the second day from Zeke eating so much. Hearing that Zeke has gained a whole pound in the last 11 days since we left the hospital helped me relax a ton!

I talked to my doctor about how things are going with nursing, that they are going a whole lot better than it did with Hannah, but I that I have been struggling in the evenings because I have been nursing pretty much non stop from the early evening until around 11pm. That has been exhausting and frustrating because Zeke just had not seemed satisfied in the evening, and we even supplemented with formula 2 nights in a row. I started pumping for 5 minutes after my morning and afternoon feedings to get breastmilk supplements for Zeke right before my sleep time, which had seemed to help.

The biggest help my doctor told me was that with how much weight Zeke has gained I can relax and let him fuss in the evenings, and not have to feel like I should nurse him every time he fusses. I have rarely even let him wriggle around and find his fists because I don’t want my baby to be unhappy, and he would get a little fussy, so I would keep him swaddled. I’ve been doing the extreme opposite that I did with Hannah.

So this evening…

Zeke took a good nap after eating when we got home from the doctor’s appointment. He was a little fussy after eating, and just wanted to be held. I tried giving him a pacifier, which he has refused to take the last few days. He finally took it! And he wasn’t upset that it wasn’t mom! Then while heating up dinner and letting Hannah play Zeke ate again, and by the time Tim got home I laid him down for another nap, and he took his first evening nap for me so far! I’m so glad he is taking a pacifier now to give me a break, and help him sleep for me!

Zeke slept while Hannah and I got to play all evening and gave me time to get her in bed before it was time for Zeke’s next feeding, which went great and he fell right to sleep for the night! So now it’s my time to go to bed, and doing it without fighting my sweet little angel.

My biggest blessing from the evening was time to play with Hannah. I haven’t spent a whole lot of time with her lately since Zeke has been pretty much glued to me. I’ve been pretty hard on myself about not giving Hannah the time and attention she needs. Now if our days keep this up I’ll be able to read up a little more and start working on some good discipline and structure for Hannah so she doesn’t continue to get spoiled rotten like she has been for the past 2 months.

03 Oct 2010 Ezekiel Ryan
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Ezekiel Ryan was born at 12:02am Thursday September 30, 2010. He weighed 7lbs, 9oz and was 20.25 inches long.

Wednesday afternoon (the due date) we had our last check up and I was dilated 3cm and 80% effaced, and my doctor went ahead and stripped my membranes. That was at 1:00pm.

2:30pm I started having some uncomfortable contractions and after a Wal-mart run I started timing my contractions right away to see if I was in actual labor or not. I called the Birth Place around 5:30pm because the longest time between my contractions was 6 minutes, which had only happened twice in the last hour, and some of them were coming as close as 2.5 minutes. The nurse told me to not come in yet, but soak in the tub and lay down and see what that would do for the contractions.

Tim had a junior high small group to lead from 6:30-8pm, so I sent Hannah with him to play in the nursery so I could labor at home. There was no way I’d be able to entertain and work with Hannah while trying to labor. I soaked in the tub for a good while, until I really couldn’t handle the pain any longer. Soaking seemed to make my contractions hurt worst, so I moved to the couch to watch the last half of Biggest Loser that I had started earlier during the day to hopefully get my mind off of the pain. While soaking and laying down my contractions hurt a lot worst, but they became more consistant coming about every 5 minutes and lasting almost a minute at that point. After the show was over I started walking around again to cope with the pain and the contractions jumped to coming every 2 or 3 minutes, but only lasting about 30 seconds.

When Tim and Hannah got home around 9:00pm I had him keep Hannah up as I called the Birth Place again to see if I could come in and see what was going on. The nurse didn’t sound convinced that it was true labor ’cause my contractions were getting sporadic again, but I decided to go in anyways because of the pain I was in. I called Robyn and arranged for her to come get Hannah for the night, and said bye to our hyper and excited little girl around 9:45pm.

We got to the hospital a little before 10:00pm. I had a contraction on the way in through the hospital door, got in the wheel chair to be taken to the Birth Place, and worked through a contraction on the way, and then had another one a couple minutes after getting to the room. They were all set to check me in a small room and send me home, but after that last contraction the nurse said they were going to move me since that sounded a little more serious than they were expecting. They checked me out at I was at 5cm and in full labor. Our nurse worked quickly at getting everything set for a fast delivery, saying she was expecting Zeke to come before 11:30pm when her shift was over. I asked if she was kidding, and she said no, things are moving along.

10:30 I was checked again and was dilated 8cm. My doctor was called in and she started talking options to deal with the pain because they weren’t sure the anesthesiologist would make it to the hospital in time. With my luck she walked in during the conversation! I was really hoping for an epidural after not getting one with Hannah and being completely sore afterwards because I couldn’t relax at all through her contractions, even after reading book after book on different relaxation tips and practicing. I didn’t get an epidural, but they did give me a spinal block that would last an hour, since apparently, that was all the time I needed. Labor slowed down a little bit, which was good, and at 11:45pm it was already time to push.

12:02am little Zeke was welcomed into our world!

With being born after midnight I had the option to stay until Saturday. I contemplated going home Friday because I was feeling pretty good, and my mom was in town by then, but our nurse Mary (A very sweet lady from our church.) at the time talked me in to taking advantage of one more night in the hospital, and I’m glad I did because I was feeling a lot more confident about going home after another night’s rest.

Zeke is doing great. Nursing is going way better with Zeke than it did with Hannah. Zeke lost 4 ounces after his first day of life, and only 1 ounce on his second, which made his doctor very happy to know especially after the difficulties I had nursing Hannah. This time I’m a lot more relaxed and was a lot more intentional about learning how to make sure I was nursing correctly. And this little man loves to eat!

Being home is nice. It’s going better than I expected. Hannah loves to give Zeke kisses and just look at him (or poke him). My mom is a huge help with chores around the house and keeping Hannah occupied while I take care of myself and Zeke. Hannah doesn’t seem to mind all the time I’m spending with Zeke instead of her since she has her daddy and grandma to give her lots of love and attention. We get our play time in, it’s just not as long right now.

Continue to pray for us through this transition. Pray for Tim as he is already back at work after the weekend. I know he would much rather be spending time at home with all of us and taking in these first few days of Zeke being in our arms. Pray for Zeke and I that nursing will continue to go well. We’re still on the learning curve, but making adjustments and figuring things out is going well being patient about it. Pray for my mom that she wont get worn out helping us, and my dad as he flies up tomorrow night. Pray for Hannah as her world doesn’t revolve around just her any more.