02 Apr 2010 When did the Cross become real to you?
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This morning as I’ve been getting our house ready for company to come for Easter I’ve been thinking about Jesus Christ and what He has done for us. Every Easter season since high school I always replay the days when our church put on a huge production of Jesus Christ Superstar by Andrew Lloyd Webber. We used the city theatre and packed out the place each night we performed. Our choir director changed some of the lyrics to make them more accurate and we had a huge cast involved, including every member of my family.

Getting to be in the musical is one of my favorite memories. Not just because of the great people I got to work with, but the lesson I learned through it all. I remember so clearly the night we were practicing in our church gymnasium and it came time to rehearse the scene of Christ’s crucifixion.  All the little kids (including my sister) were taken out of the room because the scene would be too hard for them to be around for, and we got our instructions. With angry faces and fists in the air we were to yell, “Crucify Him! Crucify Him!” I couldn’t do it. I think I uttered, “cru” and that was it. My eyes swelled up with tears and my mouth closed tightly. I went home that night and cried myself to sleep. I can’t even begin to fathom what it must have been like to be there in person when Christ was going through so much agony for me. For me! I still cry thinking through this. The next couple of rehearsals went the same for me, it was so hard to act out the scene because the cross became real to me in that moment. I finally was able to perform through that scene, and realize how much Christ really does love me, and everyone here on earth.

Something about going through the motions really brought Christ on the Cross into reality for me. I know a lot of people who said they felt that way after watching The Passion when it came out in theaters. That movie almost brought me back to where I was that first night in the gym, but actually acting it out was harder for me than watching it. I talked to my Dad about it after the movie, and how much more real the musical felt being in it. He seemed to agree with me.

I don’t know if you’ve sat down and tried to put yourself in the situation of any of the people involved with the crucifixion. After having Hannah I have tried to put myself in Mary’s shoes. Being Jesus’ Mom and going through this whole situation. I couldn’t do it.

But I am so glad that God used Christ to die on the cross so that we can all live in eternity in Heaven with God. What a wonderful maker. And to know that Christ loves us so much, that He was willing to go through all of that agony for us. He wrestled with the decision, but knew what was best because He loves us. We don’t deserve that. He didn’t deserve to die for our sins. But that’s love. And to think of the all the times I fail daily. That has got to be frustrating for God to watch. He showed us the ultimate love, and I am still selfish.

Take time to read through the Easter story this week. Personally read it. Don’t wait for someone else to read it to you during a church service this weekend. And when you go to church don’t let it be a ritual that you always do. Let God touch your heart and really dig in to what Christ did for us.

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  1. Dana i am so blessed by this post. You speak as someone who knows Christ personally, not someone who knows about him because they go to church. Your faith is the real deal, very authentic, thank you for sharing it with us. I hear a lot of parents this time of year talking about how they make sure Easter is about more than just the candy, eggs, etc., how they need to tell their children about the meaning. And while this is important, I think they stop at the mere explanation as a duty, they lack showing the brutality of our sinfulness and the living, acting power of our God. The very best parenting move we can ever make is to authentically pursue God and live that in front of our kids. Your children our blessed to have this example in their lives.

    Thank you also for the reminder to personally read the Easter story in my Bible. I’ve been reading my Bible, but somehow it completely escaped me to read the Easter story, THANK YOU for bringing that up! Josh and I are going to watch the Passion of the Christ tonight being that it’s Good Friday.

    The cross became real to me when I was 17, I spent 2 1/2 months in Honduras with Teen Missions and they structured 30 minutes quiet time in every morning. That consistency of meeting with God and being immersed in his word every day for a long time was the very best thing that ever happened to my faith. I’m grateful to have been “forced” into it and became a completely different person, hanging out with God will do that to you! 🙂

  2. Thank you so much Ashley! That is such a blessing to hear from you. And thank you so much for sharing your story with me! I love hearing people’s testimonies and how God has worked and is working in peoples lives. It is such exciting news! I had a similar situation like that on a missions trip and love that they set aside that time.