14 Sep 2009 Parenthood
 |  Category: family, marriage, ministry

HappyHannahHannah is 5 weeks old, and things are starting to settle down. The first 3 weeks of her life were just crazy, and with looking bad at how things have gone already, I have realized my biggest mistake already.

For 9 months I read and read and read about Hannah’s development, what was going on with me and all sorts of information about labor and delivery. I was totally prepped to welcome our little one into this world, at least that’s what I thought. I looked over the fact that I needed to read up on and learn about everything that would happen after Hannah arrived. I’m not sure I could’ve been totally prepared for her to be here, or even a little prepared for parenthood, but I’m sure it could’ve helped to know a little something.

I wasn’t aware of how exhausted I would be after the delivery with taking care of Hannah and recovering. I am very thankful to have had my mom here for the first week of Hannah’s life so I could feed our little one and hand her over to my mom so I could get rest. I also wasn’t aware of how stressful taking care of a baby could be and what kind of effect it would have on mine and Tim’s relationship. Tim has been great through everything, but I on the other hand have been difficult to get along with. I am very blessed to have a wonderful husband to help me out with taking care of Hannah, and I know it’ll take both of us to raise her up the way we’ve been praying about since we found out we got pregnant.

When we got pregnant I decided that I wouldn’t make any commitments to any of our church ministries with Hannah being so young at the beginning of the Fall. I still go back and forth with that decision because I have been teaching and leading small groups and classes since I got out of high school. It feels weird not to have a schedule full of commitments I’ve made to ministry, but I do keep busy taking care of Hannah. My prayer now is that God will show me what kind of ministry he wants me to do with Hannah here. Becoming a parent opens me up to a whole new way to connect with people, and I’m excited to find out what God has in store for me. As of now I started going to a Sunday School class for myself. Hannah went with me, and I’ve been contemplating if we should go ahead and put her in the nursery because I don’t want her to be a distraction, but I don’t want to put a strain on the nursery staff because with a baby so young they pretty much need one on one attention if they’re not asleep. I also signed up for a Thursday morning women’s Bible study. I’m excited to start learning again instead of teaching all the time. I think it’s important to feed yourself, and hopefully by the Spring or next Fall I’ll be right back into leading.

I feel like every day is a new experience. Nothing is predictable right now, it all depends onΒ  how the night goes, then how Hannah does with her naps during the day. I try to fit one trip out of the house every day to help me feel a little normal. The picture of Hannah above is from this morning after she ate breakfast. She was just too cute not to take a picture when she had such a full and happy tummy.

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3 Responses

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    Mrs. H 

    Way to be so transparent and honest. Parenthood is so hard to prepare for! In fact, I would say it’s impossible to prepare for. It’s a daily walk in prayer, in pleading to God, in guessing. πŸ™‚
    I, too, read all the books with my first. And now, I debate whether I need to reread those, but have the “been there, done that, nothing can really prepare you anyways” attitude of a second-time arounder. I think that I am so setting this little one up to be so different from his sister (since everyone says that no two are alike), that there’s no point in reading the books anyway πŸ™‚
    You’re smart in not putting expectations and commitments upon yourself right away. God will lay desires back upon your heart where He wants you – whether that’s back in a youth/small group setting or elsewhere. Just keep being your y.p. hubby’s cheerleader in ministry.

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    G'ma B 

    Best advice I ever got before I had babies, was from my 8-year older sis..
    “If one thing doesn’t work you try another.” !!! So we both learned on her oldest son…
    My evaluation is that it takes blood, sweat, tears, and prayers to raise a youngun..
    PLUS a lot of JOY !!!
    G’ma B.

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    GG'ma B